).-=Within The Ice.....

2009-09-21T16:20:00.002+08:00

I mourn for the losses...

It's been a while since I've teared..

Let alone while being on the phone.

Why, all those good people..

Shall control myself at the wake...

Endings..

2009-04-20T00:16:00.000+08:00

When a person stops trusting the other...

All starts to end...

...

2009-03-18T19:34:00.000+08:00

It's starting to hurt...

Rain..

2009-03-06T02:33:00.003+08:00

Reach home lo...

Lol, like idiot sia..

How old liao, still walk in the rain...

2008-06-04T07:36:00.002+08:00

See...
What i told you has come true..
It's not that easy..

Things we want to do,
Things we want to change,
Things we want to keep...

And things we don't want to lose..

--

2008-03-07T15:35:00.002+08:00

Start of year three..
End of year two..

Quite pointless though..

It's already a vestige..

---

2008-03-01T15:22:00.002+08:00

The recent posts are untitled..
I don't really know what to title them..

----------------------------------------

Come next week, it'll be the third year..
Calling it an anniversary might not be very appropriate.
But still...

Anyway, what's the point..
The end of it is gonna come soon anyway..

What's the point...

--

2008-02-24T12:11:00.002+08:00

Time's up...
Your time is up..
All the best to you...
All the best to her..

Even if you shall suffer,
You know why..
You paid the price..

-

2008-02-18T12:39:00.004+08:00

The cogs of fate has started to turn again..
It has begun..
Without my initiation.

My guess wasn't very far off then.
All the best then...
Fate shall decide..

-

2008-02-10T21:29:00.001+08:00

It's about time...
The guardianship is no longer needed..

Intervention

2008-01-20T15:42:00.000+08:00

When you chose to intervene..
You accepted all the terms, conditions and concequence..
Knowingly, or not.

That you are subjecting yourself to the very elements,
and reasons of your intervention.
Every pain, every suffering, and every drop of blood shed,
you are subjected to the same.

To be that vessel of joy, happiness, peace, or even destruction.
You have to be able to take in an equal ammount of the exact opposite.
To be able to pay the price..
Nothing comes for free.

Sadly in reality, there is no such thing as an omni-potent.
There is always an ultimate limit..
To how much you can take in, to how much you can do..

In whatever futile attempt to break that limit,
you attempt to break yourself.
Of course, broken things can sometimes be repaired..
But to what extend..?

However skillful and well the repairs are done,
there will still be cracks..
Small as a hairline, or wide as a valley..
There will still be a crack.

However tough, however strong..
It is now brittle..
Fragile, even..

But why..
Why do people still intervene..
Even though those intervened upon will not be grateful..
Why..

Cruel

2008-01-19T00:12:00.000+08:00

It's a cruel world...
Where only the fittest, and the heartless survive...
And the naive dies...

Anyway, I should have seen it comming...
Or maybe I just didn't want to...
Denial is such a powerful thing.

I don't have the answer..

Taiwan Photos!

2007-12-11T16:28:00.000+08:00

Heres the photos i took from the taiwan trip!
But it kinda can't fit into my blog, so...
There you go: http://s6.photobucket.com/albums/y223/ickz/Taiwan/

=)

Moon

2007-11-25T11:45:00.000+08:00

It was a full moon last night,

On my birthday.

After the clock struck twelve..

=)

Birthday

2007-11-23T00:51:00.000+08:00

I understand...
I know it's your birthday..

Maybe you won't agree..
But i know how you feel more than anyone else..

But what about me?

Maybe if you thought about it..
Maybe if you really cared..

You'd realise..

Taiwan

2007-11-04T16:06:00.000+08:00

Well, going taiwan tomorrow le..
Will be back on the 21st.
This blog will rot again, after rotting fer 2 months. -.-"
And then after that, it'll be a month of protection of KINs..

Haven't been there before, wonder what it's like there.
The field enviroment, the air, the sky, the city, the people..
But the weather will definitely be cold..
Zzz, see ba. Will probably be able to adapt to it..

Going to Chinatown to change currency later..
=s

-----------------------------------------------------------------

16th to 22nd November, have to take good care of yourself wor..
If there's things you need, or company, I guess you can rely on
your 'darling', and WQ ba. At least I'm sure you won't feel
lonely when you're with them.

Anyway, I've activated auto-roaming le, so you can always
drop me a message and stuff. And remember, the 9th..
Message me before you go, and when you come back.
REMEMBER...

Drift Away

2007-11-02T10:27:00.000+08:00

Maybe i'm just a bad sailor...

Everytime it seems I'm getting closer to the shore...
It drifts away...
Silently I watch it drift away...
Without hate...
Without grudge of it drifting away before my eyes...
Land accepts those who reaches it's shores...
Those skilled enough, strong enough...
Brave enough to set foot on her...

But I'm always stuck in the water...
Unable to get closer...
Watching those who make it there...
Those who found their comfort there...
Those who found their home there...
Those who left...
Those who thoght there were bigger islands to find...
Those who exploited the island for reasons their own...
Those who left it scarred..

But there it is...
Always there before my eyes...
So unreachable...
So intangible...
Drifting out there...

Envious

2007-09-14T19:31:00.000+08:00

You know, I've always envied those people..
People who posseses those characters...
Characters that allow them to block out everything they want to deny,
Reject the facts, reject your own wrongs and push it off...
Tell others that they were right, and admit you're wrong...
Just because you don't want to see their point, see why you were wrong..

Characters that allow them to do anything and everything,
Without consideration of others, their feelings, their emotions, their effort, their time..
Without thinking how others would be able to live better with them,
But how they will have to live with them...
And being able to live happily like this...

I could never understand them...
If I changed myself to become one of them,
Would I be able to live more happily..?
Maybe if i did, even if I didn't end up being happier..
At least I would be immune to all this...

---------------------------------------

5.30pm.
I booked out, I made my way straight back to camp from
tanah merah..
Cuz I hoped I would be able to attend your passing out parade,
To watch you pass out...
Even though my free time today was limited to 11pm..
I chose to look for you, to share your moment of celebration..
MRT took me nearly an hour..
You called and told me it's over, but I thought it's okay..
At least we could head home together.. I asked you to wait for me..
I was one stop away.. I recieved your message..
Telling me that you already got a cab, and that you're sorry..

You know what that means..?
It means I'm not even worth a cab to you.
A cab means to you more, than me...

Issues

2007-08-13T19:00:00.000+08:00

Trust has to be earned, respect has to be earned,
He's already displayed more than enough of of lies, deception and betrayal...
Everyone knows it. And yet you still want, and expect us to accept him and his actions..?
Hai...

Fade away...

2007-08-08T09:04:00.001+08:00

Strangers met.
Strangers noticed each other.
Strangers started to talk to each other.
Strangers got to know each other.
Strangers kept in touch with each other.
Strangers became friends.

Friends went out together.
Friends joked together.
Friends watched movies together.
Friends shopped together.
Friends played together.
Friends ran together.
Friends sweat together.
Friends enjoyed together.
Friends liked being together.
Friends became inseparable.
Friends became companions.

Companions laughed together.
Companions confided in each other.
Companions cried together.
Companions advised each other.
Companions went through tough times together.
Companions supported each other.
Companions walked through life together.

Companions learned together.
Companions learned different things.
Companions went different ways.

Companions supported each other less.
Companions went through tough times together less.
Companions advised each other less.
Companions cried together less.
Companions confided in each other less.
Companions laughed together less.

Companions became separable.
Companions became friends.

Friends got together less.
Friends enjoyed together less.
Friends sweat together less.
Friends ran together less.
Friends played together less.
Friends shopped together less.
Friends watched movies together less.
Friends joked together less.
Friends went out together less.

Friends became strangers.
Strangers kept in touch with each other less and less.
Strangers got to know each other less and less.
Strangers started to talk to each other less and less.
Strangers noticed each other less and less.
They became strangers.

They failed their friendship...
Their friendship failed them...
Their friendship faded away...

Friendship left them memories...
They let their memories fade away...
They let their friendship fade away...

Strangers faded away...
Strangers again strangers...

Strangers never met again.

End

2007-07-25T04:30:00.000+08:00

Block leave is over! =s
Booking in later at 8am, and another month of deployment
will start again on friday...

Wonder what happened to Potter in 'Deathly Hallows'.
=s

~

2007-07-15T20:09:00.000+08:00

Next week, we'll have finally have another long awaited block leave..
Free time! Wonder what can i do during those few days. =s

I'm Tired...

2007-06-07T14:31:00.000+08:00

I'm tired...

Tired of all the politics...
Tired of all the facades...
Tired of all the hypocrites...
Tired of people...
Tired of myself...
Tired of all the lies...

__________________________

People dig wells in search for water...
And people rely on wells for water...

The old staple well was depleting,
so they begun to look for a new one.
One day, when they dug...
They found traces of water,
They thought they've finally found;
A reliable source of water.
So no one thought to dig deeper.
They rejoice.

They drank their hearts full,
They drank the old well empty...
And when the next day came,
When they needed water,
They went to the new well for water...

There was none.

They didn't believe it,
They dug deeper,
Only to find nothing...

And dehydration finally took their life.

What if one day you needed water,
and you went to look for the well you thought
you could rely on...
Just to find it empty..?

Would you lay down and die...
Look for another well...
Or decide maybe the well might provide
you with what you need if you dug deeper,
and went back to it?

-Zhi.

Sigh-

2007-02-20T20:14:00.000+08:00

Haix... Seriously don't know what to write now a days...
Been what? A month plus since the post.

Hmm, these few days fer cny have been going out.
Went Lan on Sat, work on sunday night...
Did nth much on monday, went to teacher's
place to Bai nian today... Only visited Mr Goh
due to the 2 groups wanting to do diff things...

Didn't mind visiting Ms Tan's place though,
and meeting up with the other group consisting
more of 5A, haven't seen those guys in a while...
Too bad for me i guess...

8.22pm nw... gotta go book in le... bb.

Words

2007-01-07T16:10:00.000+08:00

Is listening really that hard...
Just letting words enter the ears, and into the mind...
And feel the emotions and meaning that comes with it...
Is it really that hard...

The humans' ability to adapt has been really successful...
Allowing the ears to filter out things it doesn't want to listen...
Efficient to the point that the words aren't even heard...

Maybe it isn't that hard... Maybe...
Or just maybe that's what makes us the selfish bastards that we are...
Only hearing the things we want to hear...

I guess that's what we are...

2006 Conclusion

2007-01-02T19:31:00.000+08:00

Well, this year has been really eventful.
Many things changed, some haven't.
Good or bad, time shall decied...

Can't type much...
I'll have to rush off now...
Hate how I always get the urge to blog
Just before I book in...
Always...

Anyway, for December 2006...
Haix, I overspent.... T_T.

Later!

Christmas!

2006-12-17T19:21:00.000+08:00

Well, Chrismas is comming soon, it's just next week.
Hmm, heard we'll be out from 23rd to the 25th morning.
No idea how I'll be passing time those 3 days,
Most likely I'll be helping out on sat again, that leaves me with 2 days.

Doubt that I'll be able to celebrate the count down to nxt yr.

Anyway, earlier today I went to meet Shan for abit.
And had dinner together too.
Have been quite long since we last met, since before enlistment I think.

Hmm, well, I have to go now, it's almost time.
It's raining really heavily, and I wouldn't wanna be late...

Civi

2006-12-10T19:23:00.000+08:00

For a while, it felt like things were back to normal again.
For a while, i felt i was a civilian again...
Guess i'm not, 1year and 7months more to go!

Onward...

Untitled

2006-12-02T16:05:00.000+08:00

Broken promises...
Emty words....
False hopes...
Lies and deciet...

Is all i give...

My existance is a drag...
A drag's existance is not needed...
My existance is not needed...

Leave me alone...

Outfield

2006-11-12T01:07:00.000+08:00

Day 1, after all the tossing the fastcraft(boat) did to us,
and about 5km march in FBO, meaning our rifles,
field pack and webbing, we begun setting up our bashas.
We had to also dig a knee deep drain around the basha,
for drainage of rain-water, so we wouldn't be
flooded when it rains.

After that was lunch.
Combat rations.

It actually wasn't as bad as I heard and thought it would be,
espescially the dessert pack, haha. It's pretty good.
Next was IFC lesson, Individual Field Craft.
As the title suggests, it's all about the stuffs we should
know and do out on the field.

Day 2, 5bx(basic excercises) in the morning,
proceeded on to the granade assault course
to pratice for the live granade throw the next day.
More IFC.. Oh ya, we had to put on camo the whole day.

Day3, day of the granade live throw! OC-sir gave us fresh
rations that day, not bad... All went well except a having a few
blinds(granades that din blow up, and we had to wait half an hour
before blowing it up manually with explosives for every blind)
and one guy from the company(my platoon) who threw the granade
too near, and got confined for four hours for safety breach O_0.
In overall, my platoon out of the three, did best for the throw
by blowing up our target board... haha. Our PC(platoon commander)
was pretty happy.

Well, the remainder four days was basically filled by IFC lessons,
IFC tests, road marches, and trench digging(most tirring besides
getting whacked in Full-Battle-Order)... Oh yea, not to mention
the frequent visits by the wild boars, countless biting ants,
turnouts in the middle of the night, and commanders
constantly trying to steal our rifles to get us confined. O_0-

About 9pm of the last day, we got back to camp,
sent in our arms, and caught up with the lack of sleep...
The whole of the first day after camp, was rifle
and cleaning of stores... It seriously took us all day.

And here i am, booked out, and booking in tomorrow.
Have loads of smelly uniform to wash & dry...

nitE.

Sometimes in order to go fast,
we have to slow down....

Army stuff

2006-10-29T11:53:00.000+08:00

Argh...! Too bad i missed it, my marksmanship...
The live firing consisted of two parts, 'Day shoot' and 'Night shoot'.
Each shoot consists of 4 positions, four targets each.
Day shoot! I shot down 15 out of the 16 boards,
2nd day shoot! Shot 15 out of 16 boards again!
That brought me closer to marksmanship than ever.

Night shoot practice 1! I took down 14 out of 16 targets,
Marksman was already in my hands...
Night shoot test! While sitting there waiting for my detail's turn,
something cocked up, so we had to wait for the problem to be solved
by the commanders.

While waiting, I dozed off... -.-"
Awhile later, I was awakened by gunfire...
My mind was everything but awake.
I was Lethargic, drowzy, sleepy and blur...

My turn was up next. Took down 1, 2, missed, 3.
This kinda repeated for the next three positions,
I had 3 or 4 misses, making the score 12-14 out of16.
If i hit 14, I'd still get the marksman,
Around 14 from my platoon got marksman, but they haven't
announced neither the score nor the names.
But I think I'm a gonner... O_0

Okay, now that's over. Another thing is,
I'll be going outfield next week, for 7 days.
Starting thurs, and i'll only book out on the 11th,
that's if i don't do anything that gets me confined...
Another thing, I hope the wild boars at tekong
don't love me too much and wouldn't come and find me reguarly...
=S

Another thing.... 27 more days to that day...!
Luckily it falls on a weekend, but i heard I'd have to
help out on then....
Hope I wouldn't have to on that day...
27 Days and counting...

Interactives

2006-10-21T10:36:00.000+08:00

Hi guys..! I was so surprised to see so many tags..!
I really appreciate it.

Tiffany: ello... Yep, I remember you... Hmm, poetic?
I'd take that as a compliment then. :p thx!
Yep, I'm actually serving my ns and was enlisted on 8th Sep...

m4shig3r, Yee: Hmm, that's the thing... Somehow the desire of posting only comes up when i feel strong emotions,
so I'd just pen it down when it comes...
So.... to improve this place, what kind of things do you
guys want me to write more about?

Piggyprincess: =)

Distorted...

2006-10-05T22:24:00.000+08:00

I don't think I know anymore...
No longer know if I'm right or wrong...
What am I doing..?
Heck, why am I even doing this...
I don't feel like myself...

I don't feel that way...
But why do I think I feel that way..?
What's with the distortion..?
What's with the deliruim..?

Worst of all...
This time, I can't seem to be able...
To put it in words...

1& half days of freedom...

2006-09-23T22:55:00.000+08:00

After two weeks of confinement, I'm free!
But I still have to go back there tomorrow evening...
Sigh.... It's okay, I'll take in whatever they trow at me...

Maze

2006-08-28T23:39:00.000+08:00

Out on it's own isolated fields it sits,
There, right there it sits under the moon,
Day and night it sits, awaiting.
For a person.

The person who is brave enough,
To venture into it's depths.
But this maze is merely wasting it's time.

There exists only two types of mazes,
That people enter.
Mazes that contain something of value at its heart,
And mazes that have an exit at the other end.

People only enter mazes for two purposes,
To acquire what's kept in its heart,
Or to get thought to the other side.

So what becomes of this maze?
That which has the unknown lurking its depths,
That which has neither an exit,
Nor something of value at its heart.

Thus its existence is questioned,
For what purpose does it serve?
A maze which no one enters,
A maze that consumes much needed space.

I guess that's a question I'll have to answer....

Advice?

2006-08-25T03:56:00.000+08:00

This isn't the first time I've thought about it
I live the way I want. It's the way I live.
But once in a blue moon when I happen to meet the lost,
And when the lost meets me,
They ask for directions.

Assuming it's kind to do so,
And to do so is kind,
I showed them the way in which I head.

Not knowing that a path that might be easy for me,
Might not apply eually.

A treacherous path it will be,
For those who've found themselves
In unfamiliar grounds.

I've found by doing so,
No matter how slightly,
I'm making them live the way I do.

I know that this path,
Is not one to success.
So I try my best,
To pose a path of choice.
To the lost.

So be wary of consequences...
If you ever ask me...
To choose in your stead...
Which is the path to take...

My two cents worth

2006-08-15T23:36:00.000+08:00

Lolz, it's been 11 day since my last post... Didn't feel 11...
Anyway....

Ahh, the past weeks has been really enjoyable and eventful.
I've got my friends to thank for that.
Really enjoyed myself. Thanks.

ARG! This coming friday is my secondary school's "50th Anniversary Dinner"!!!
And I haven't decided on something to wear... S I G H...
I'm so, so DOOMED!!!
What to do... I have such a lousy sense of fashion....

On a different topic;
I sense a storm coming...
No, not a storm in a teacup...
But a destructive one...

The signs have shown...
But no counter-measures has been put in place...
No matter how much it will destroy...
I hope the foundations will hold...

Or there will be nothing left to rebuild on...

End....

~Sum41 - Pieces~

2006-08-04T00:55:00.000+08:00

Okay, some people are complaining about my irregular updates... T_T
FINE!(lolz). So I am posting up the lyrics of one of the songs
I listen to, to entertain you while my boring life continues...

"Pieces"

I tried to be perfect
But nothing was worth it
I don't believe it makes me real
I thought it'd be easy
But no one believes me
I meant all the things I said

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own

This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don't know how it got so bad
Sometimes it's so crazy
That nothing can save me
But it's the only thing that I have

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own

On my own

I tried to be perfect
It just wasn't worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It's hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own.......

Okay...... end.....

Chalet~

2006-07-22T05:12:00.000+08:00

Okay! The past week has been really great! Haven't had such fun in a long time... Oh, and that excludes the check-up on wednesday :p

Living under one roof with those guys was a really different and interesting experience, so what if I didn't get to sleep on a bed on some nights? It was still fun. =D

We did stuff like, cleaning up, washing the floor, barbecue, getting our eyes smoked to tears, spent time at the arcade, cyclying and playing dumb games..... XD

Still, it was fun. Even though at times there were ups and downs, still....
We enjoyed each other's company. =)

Moon

2006-07-16T00:30:00.000+08:00

Okay, this is the 2nd post of today...
You can say it's abit bo liao la.. but...

The moon tonight is soooo CHIO!!
Seriously, it looks so near to Earth tonight,no idea why...
So big and with a shade of yellow, beautiful...

CMPB will be the death of me~

2006-07-15T16:41:00.000+08:00

Hmm, recently ever heard of the song 'I will always be the death of you'?
Haix, CMPB will be the death of me lor....
Of all the days possible, my medical check-up has to be on the 19th!
Right on the second last day of an anticipated chalet... T_T
I'm so gonna miss out on that day's happenings.....

Anyway, I just got home from work...
I'm online now but I'm not on Msn, reason being...
I stink...!
I wanna go bath 1st...
*Gone*

Oh but before that, something that has been on my mind:

I've never thought I would have to draw this line,
This fine line that exists between every extremes,
I thought that such a line wouldn't exist in friendship,

I guess I was wrong,
I was too naive,
I'm on the verge of delving too deep,
Or maybe I already have,

I do not know.
I sincerely hope I haven't.

But henceforth I shall draw the line,
Which I thought didn't exist,
Which I didn't see,
For the good of each of our worlds,
I shall draw the line...

Ice shall not encase me this time,
But I will allow it to cover me just enough,
So the flame shall harm none...

*Gone Bath*

Btw, that post revolves around more than one person,
so dun think too much. XD

CutHair ----> HairCut

2006-07-10T23:15:00.000+08:00

I woke up at 2pm(ok, wuts new?) today... But sleepyness got the better of me and I turned off my phone alarm.... So instead, I woke at 4pm. =p Okay la, to make long story short; I later on went to Bukit Batok where I got my previous haircut, to get it cut again after what? 7 months? Hehe...

Okay, after that I moved on to Jurong Point which was 4 mrt stations away to practice my rusting 'Initial D' skills, and also to try out an unfamiliar technique in the game... Haix, expected... Couldn't get it right, guess I'll have to get acustomed to it if I want to get better times for my runs... In the end, today's pratice session wasn't very fruitful... Sigh... Rusting le!!! T_T.

Sunday, muahaha~

2006-07-10T03:48:00.000+08:00

Today is Sunday! Monday is Edmund's birthday le, so today we pei him go out...! My day started of with... Ring Ring!(okay la, maybe nt ring ring, is nokia de tone) Voice at the other line asked 'arlow, where are you...'.

Haha, it was 2.23pm then, was supposed to meet Edmund at 2.30 for movie(which starts at 3.30), die... Luckily he was still at home when he called me, so we changed the meeting time to 4.30 for the next show... And the film that we chose was......... Re-cycle!! Haix, the theatre was soo cold... heng I wore 2 layers. The show itself wasn't that bad, but I wouldn't call it a ghost story because it didn't revolve around ghosts and hauntings... The only complain I have is: 'I HATE THE ENDING!!!' why do the shows always have to end off incomplete..?

No wonder our teacher told us not to write such endings for our exam papers... =S

After that we went to look for Jeremy at Suntec, he was supposed to join us after work... And so he did, we went to the regular LAN shop after that... On and on we played, hungry sia... Jeremy and I ordered a cup of instant noodles each, Edmund just got himself a drink; 100 plus lime O_0. Sigh...the coms biased sia, Edmund's and Jeremy's had 'Windows Messanger' and mine didn't!! T_T biased....

Okay, 3am le..... Auntie want to close le... Haha, Edmund's turn to hungry le, we went to a coffeeshop around the corner and he 'da bao-ed' four dollars of fried rice... So, last but not least we caught a cab home.

And here I am =)

My Days

2006-07-07T03:01:00.000+08:00

You know, I find that I find that majority of my posts are
actually quite negative... haha
Anyway, for the past few days, I've mostly been
spending time with my friends outside.

You can call it rotting, window shopping, time wasting, hanging out, enjoying our time with each other, which ever you prefer, with those I like to spend time with. But yea, I like doing such things(however dumb or pointless it may seem). At home, mostly I find something to occupy myself with, be it 'shooting' people in forums, reading, or helping my friends out with their blog stuff... It really depends on what my friends ask me to help them out with...

Though there are other things that has my attention, I won't say it here for the privacy of those concerned...
Still wondering how or what I should do to help... Can't leave them alone...

To him, who doesn't know who he is.

2006-06-29T22:59:00.000+08:00

I for one, knows you'll never get to read this page.
Just because, you don't.

I don't know if you think it is a good thing we are friends.
At least, I do. And that's what I deem our relationship is.
Honestly, I don't know what you think we are.
Or just maybe, how and what you percieve friends as is just.....
different.

No matter how unhappy you made others,
I was able to swallow it, whole. Indifferent.
And in the shadows, I've kept them close.
Just close enough, to you.
For them to be able to call you friend.

Even though it's been years i've tolerated
I'm drying out...

Relationships.
It's not about how many you have...
It's about how you matain the close ones you have...

I won't be the one to give up on you.
But I won't be the one to
teach you this lesson either...

What I said might not be right...
But bare minimum, I'm not wrong.

Food for Thought

2006-06-21T17:50:00.000+08:00

Turn your sadness into kindness, and you uniqueness into strength.

It's ok to get lost in the process.
Begin to walk, one more time.

Do you like to answer to someone's expectation, and be praised for it?
Even if you must sacrifice what you really want to do, will your smile be true?

I wake up after seeing only the beginning of my dream,
but i will grasp what happens after that with my arms

Yes, the important things are always the ones with no form.
Even if you obtain it or lose it, you do not notice.

So turn your sadness into kindness, and you uniqueness into strength.

It's ok to get lost in the process.
Begin to walk, one more time.

One Month.

2006-06-08T23:22:00.000+08:00

Well well, it's been one month since my last entry, and it'll be one month to go till i'm due for my medical check up fer ns...

During the past month, quite alot of things happened... I won't type about them in detail, but to summarise; I got myself a pair of running shoes, got a new ring(cuz i lost the one Miss Lee gave me T_T), spent most of the days working, and met a couple of new friends!

Earlier just now, went over too yee's place to pass her, her dolls and we had a little chat.....

Now, i'm eating dinner.... lolz.

Kao, I'm SICK!

2006-05-01T15:31:00.000+08:00

Me... I woke up in bed earlier at 8, *ahhhhh CHOO!*
Crap, i caught flu, in addition to it's best buddy: the leaking nose...
By 12pm, i was starting to feel a headache...
So i thought i'd rest more so that i'd go away...

3.16pm: i woke up... Man, my body felt so hot,
I just attributed it to me having wrapped myself in blankets.
But i still took the thermometer test nevertheless...
Guess what, it started from the digits 37.1,
and continued jumping from there.

The end result? I'm now 38.8 degrees hot.
Haven't had a fever in a long time,
and it just had to come on labour day...

I'll check myself later again,
it'd better not shoot any higher...

Tomorrow-

2006-04-26T04:20:00.000+08:00

Ok, lets see... tomorrow i'll have to be at Jurong Point by 12pm, zzz.
A primary school friend arranged to meet up there, telling me the time would be 12. Crazy timeing for me to wake up... T_T

So i suppose we'll probably hang out and catch up
for abit till late afternoon. Funny thing is, he'll be bringing along some of his friends(according to him), ok... i'm expecting i'll be the odd one out.

Anyway, after that, i'll be heading over to CH's place to get some troublesome online form done there, gotta thank him lots for
squeezing time out for me :s.

That's more or less about it i guess, after all that i'll head home and camp infront of the monitor again... Depeding if i'm tired then...
might fall asleep using the com, =P

T_T i'm sick

2006-04-15T05:23:00.000+08:00

Waaa, man! I can't belive the flu i caught two days ago is still bugging me! Makes going about life such a pain, having to wiping my nose very so often. Enough is enough! Pls stop, T_T...

New Wallet~!

2006-04-13T15:50:00.000+08:00

Muahahaha! Finally the shop replenished it's stocks. The last time i dropped by, wanting to buy it, it was outta

stocks. I thought it was a gonner. T_T

Another month later, when i went past the shop, OMG! It's there in the shelves!! So i rushed to the nearest ATM, and bought it. Hehe.

Here's a picture of it, it's not too clear and crisp, my phone camera ain't that good...

Too early for a post...

2006-03-27T05:16:00.000+08:00

Hmm, it's pretty early isn't it? For a post at least... I
think it is, 4.59am.... lolz.
Exactly last week today, at 4.45am, i was loitering
around the park near my place...
I saw this kitten(i'm guessing teenage for cat years)
sitting there upright at the basketball court.

Hmm, so i went over and sat next to it, and guess what?
It crawled over, cuddled itself up, and began sleeping on my lap
(i was sitting crosslegged).
Lol! Looking at it sleeping soundly was soooo
indescribible...

Here's a snap of it i took...(Uploaded! Technical probs solved.)

Anyway, soon after, an old uncle came over with
packets of food for the cats.
About half a dozen of them appeared from nowhere, lolz.
The sleeping cat left me, T_T.
So having nothing else to do, being early in the morning,
i just did some workout there before heading home
(which was like 6am).

Now, i plan on going up there, but the sky's red,
with winds blowing strongly...
Looks like it's gonna rain... I'll still go and walk around though,
i'll just head back when it starts raining.

Laterz!

Edit: It started raining after i changed! My plans are screwed. T_T

The united, divided.

2006-03-15T05:49:00.000+08:00

From 9th to 12th march, i've been working at the 'IT Show 2006' at suntec city's convention hall as a flyer distributor. First day was... Well, boring. The day with the least inflow of people, it couldn't get anymore mundane. So, the resolution was to slack... a group of us from 'Brothers', 'Cannon' and 'Kodak' were wasting time away in a corner most of the time. :s.

Second day into the job, that's when the fun all started. So many people were streaming in that trying to get them to take a pamphlet wasn't even a chore. On every trip back to the 'Brothers' booth to refill, i would make an effort to walk past other distributors and collect pamphlets from them and mostly give them out later(although it occasionally ends up with the trash). Almost everyone from the other companies whom i past collecting pamphlets from them would give me a strangely amused look, hehe... Can't seem to wipe those looks off my mind... :p

The third day was best! And i thought it couldn't get any better. I was almost friends with everyone now, friendliest bunch i've ever met. At a time, as usual we stood in a row... with a twist to the distributing part. The first one in the row would offer the first pamphlet to the passerby, if that person accepts it, the rest of us(around 5) would throw all he/she didn't get into his/her hands and the passerbys will always wear this mixed expression of deep amusment and stun after we're done with them. Evil arn't we? hehehe...

The last day... Things were almost the same... with the exception of an even higher influx of people(how was that even possible considering saturday?). By the start of late afternoon, i was running around collecting the contacts(e-mails) of the friends i got to know there during the four days. Not too long later, i was feeling kinda low, only after running around i realised that the distributors from 'Cannon', 'Kodak' and 'Fujifilm' were absent! Man, and they did tell me they were working untill sunday, the same as me(at least the one from Kodak did). I was so, so disappointed... And we got along so well...

At the end of the day, we left the place... That which brought us together, shall now divide us. Return we shall to where we have come... Till we meet again.

Even three days later(today), i'm regretting that i didn't ask the rest for their contacts a day earlier...
I really miss the guys i've met there.
Untill the indefinite time when we shall meet again...
Bye.

....who?

2006-02-26T02:18:00.000+08:00

Day by day, I feel more and more worn out by the world...
How can i live for another 40 to 50 years?
At this rate, there'll be nothing left of me anymore soon enough...

When that day comes...
Should I be happy, or sad...

Moon

2006-02-12T23:08:00.000+08:00

Tonight, i'm feeling like this again. So i shall write,
though an audience i doubt i have.
Few people live in the world i do, most wake up in the day, looks into the sky and at the sun, where their dreams awaits. Me? I wake up in the night, and wander under the moon... Under that which those without dreams look at...

Few dares to live the way and path i do. Simply because in this society, it is the path to destruction. Though i still walk this path, where no one else ventures... Who knows what I shall find in the abyss? I tread on this path, for i fear not destruction...
There are things worse than that.

But the fact is, i walk a dangerous path.
And i shall answer it with equivilant caution.
For those who has once walked this path, good for you...
Beacause now... You're safe.

The moon is beautiful as ever tonight.
I wonder who else is starring at it...

Sky

2006-02-09T14:31:00.000+08:00

At night I wonder,
Under this glittering starry sky,
With the countless constellations and shadows,
Before all this I wonder,
What are we searching for...

Confusion

2006-02-07T13:26:00.000+08:00

That day is not far from now, what should I do?
The path of choice has come.
Shall I allow the lines of fate entangle?
Or to just let it flow past, as if neither ever existed?

The Parting of Ways....

2006-01-28T00:11:00.000+08:00

This is dedicated to those friends whom I met at work:

From the different worlds we hail from, be it those who strive for their goals, be it those who are athletic, or those who wander aimlessly.Chance has led to our acquaintance, but chemistry broke us through that barrier. Embeded shall this memory be, in our minds, for as long as we last....

On the brink of freezing...

2006-01-23T23:53:00.000+08:00

Today was so fuct up..... Ok, maybe only part of it..... but it still spoiled my day.... Usually, people grow nosier when they become furious/fustrated, but i'm not usual... it usually gets stored....

Even the clamest waters has the potential of destruction....

Burnt

2005-12-07T20:13:00.000+08:00

Me and the guyz went fishing early yesterday, bought lunch, couple bottles of mineral water and took the cab down, cuz walking in all the way to the spot would take too long(though we have to walk on the way out). Rods up, hooks on, weights attatched , and we were ready go to.

We spent most of the day there, under the scorching sun and got sun burned in the end, hehe...

Woot

2005-11-30T16:01:00.000+08:00

Waaa, tonight is the prom night already. So soon, and its already the official farewell for our class and the others, really hope its gonna be real fun. Laterz.

It's Stopping

2005-11-16T02:45:00.000+08:00

Three papers left. Namely geography, design and technology, and science MCQ. The geo paper will take place later this morning, and the last two papers will be on monday and tuesday of next week.

The end of the 'O's,
The end of
Everything

Frozen

2005-11-11T13:33:00.000+08:00

When was the last time I felt this way.....six years ago when it all started going wrong?.....or was it.....eight years ago when I had just been abandoned....... Damn...this sucks......now I understand.....It's no wonder now why I did the things I did back then.......It's now more vivid than ever......too vivid..............

Waiting to fail.....

2005-11-09T16:59:00.000+08:00

Ahh, done, I was done writing the Section A for compo, now to move on to section B.... Hmm, lets see...to choose a course during the holidays out of the three, explain your choice, and persuade the pupils.

Writing~ writing~.... I have chosen the First Aid Course, and I shall explain why....... Then the speaker bellowed 'Please put down your pens'. I was frozen there for a second....freak...there goes my english marks.....

Man, how disappointing....and I worked so hard for the other papers too....I'm like so hating myself now....

The First Paper

2005-11-07T16:32:00.000+08:00

Woah, now that that was over, 1 hr and 32 mins ago, I feel so much more relaxed, you know, the kinda feeling when you know you've worked hard and did your best.

Ahh, I did my maths ok, thanks to my friends who help me out with all that mathematical stuff the night before. The chunk of credit goes to our brilliant and hard working teacher Ms. Chua who ingeniously predicted that the topic on 'Venice' would be comming out.

And for those who're blaming Ms. Chua for predicting wrongly that the other topic 'Growth of Nations' would come out, screw youself. Man, shes told you guyz to study BOTH!, BOTH!, for heaven's sake and you're pushing your blame on her? What the? Do you know alot of pressure was on her, and if everyone blames her about stuff like this, and does not feel grateful towards her other contributions, I doubt anyone would want to be a teacher any longer.

She feels man, shes human, shes sad too over it...for you guyz put effort into studying that topic and she sees it, clearly, more so than anyone. So just get over it and don't blame, nor say insensitive things to her, shes all but a human, not omnipotent.

Think about how much shes loves you guyz, how much shes contriubuted and above all, sacrificed.

Today

2005-11-04T22:29:00.000+08:00

Eh, woke up at four, missed the maths remedial that started at one. Then, one of the guyz called me and asked if i wanted to meet up for study session. On board the bus, suddenly caught a flu T_T. Then at Mac, I was spending most of the time soaking up the mucus in addidtion to coping with the sneezes, ahhh, had such a hard time concentrating, so sad. We went off after most of us lost drained out our attention span and headed for home.

Yesterday and today

2005-10-25T19:38:00.000+08:00

Man, I was so friggin pissed off yesterday.... blardy Bersan(the new vice principal) didn't allow us to go watch the finals for the annual school TalentTime! It's like the most anticipated event of the school every year! Even more so than the camping trips that the students go to, and he didn't let us go! ARG!!!

He thought we should have been studying instead? The periods during the talenttime were all free lessons! There maths, Mrs Yeong(our maths teacher) came, but she didn't even teach! We were supposed to do our own stuff and all of us were rotting away in class missing the event of the year! zzzzzzz

This didn't happen during the past years when it was the last principal! The graduating classes were allowed to watch! And to aggrivate things, the classes from the EXPRESS streams were allowed to watch! CURSES!!!!

Today, I got hit by flu...T_T. The last few lessons seemed to drag on for aeons...... Finally, the end of school came, with a huge dark cloud that devoured the sun. Causing darkness no less equivalent to the night. I headed over to the canteen with a growling stomach, then made my purchase at a noodle stall after considering the limited choices the canteen offered. Finishing our food, we went over to the drinks machine. My friend was trying to shoot the coin in the coin slot of the machine...lolz we were laughing our ass off...dumb thing to do really, but at least his main intention succeded, it brought laughter.

Hmm, continued wasting time untill the rain was light enough for us to walk under...chattering our way towards the bustop untill we took our split ways. Comming tomorrow, will be PE lessons for 3 periods! wahaha, MT teacher will be absent from class...haha it'll be sports & games frenzy for us, hehe......

Peril

2005-10-15T22:57:00.000+08:00

Man, I can't belive that i'm still unable to muster enough self-discipline to focus all my time spent on my studies! Its only two freaking weeks till the 'O' level written papers, and next week is science pratical. Wa lao, how? Exam so near, it's closer than ever, the phase that will decide my fate. Will I plunge to the depths of the path to failure...I'm so useless.....

People

2005-10-11T15:35:00.000+08:00

Sigh, i see so many of them everyday, hypocrites, liars, all sorts. Why can't they just reject to be one? Are they cool? Or is that facade just too useful and convinient for you to let go? Damn, why do you people just have to do such things? Why can't you people just tell the truth about such minor things? You even have to lie about small simple matters which benifits neither party, what the hell? The truth too much for us to handle? Or is it just that you don't have the courage to do so?

Man! This is so irritating! Lying about things that aren't even worth lying about, and you people still do! What purpose does it serve? Haven't you considered the possibility that people don't mind you voicing out those minor things that you are so desperately hiding? And that they mind so many times more of the fact that you are hiding those things from them, them who trusts you so much, and that you are betraying them by such little bits everyday that it mighy accumulate to something worse than betrayal.

Think! Nature gave us our minds, we are multi-cellular beings! We have the ability to think and to consider!
Think! Consider! Of what might be the best things for us do to! Fear not of mistakes, but stop, think and consider you next step from your mistake! Instead of letting yourself sink in the pit you so imagine that you are stuck in.

Boredom

2005-10-03T14:52:00.000+08:00

Sigh, i'm damn bored now, i have to go to beach road later to buy stuff and have to reach there before 5pm(the shops mostly closes at 5pm) all alone. Friends are all busy with their stuff, couldn't find a single one to keep me company.

Four tiny weeks more to the gigantic 'O' levels, so stressful, in addition to my already dreadful grades, haiz, also dunno how to pass...... But speaking of which, even if I cannot make it to a poly, i won't hold any grudge to any single one of my teachers, cuz they have put in hell lots of effort and offered to help me in ways more then one. They will forever remain in my memory untill my existence fades away...

'O' lvls english oral exam

2005-08-23T15:51:00.000+08:00

Boo, my tagboard's gone T_T. Anyway, I took my english 'O' lvls oral exam today and it was... I wouldn't say a breeze, but it went much smoother and better than I had thought it would be. The General topic was- snakes. The passage was about this two good friends who know lots about snakes, but when a park ranger came to their school and brought along a snake, it showed otherwise.

The picture was showing two park rangers wrapped each with a snake around them in the middle of a primary school hall surrounded by children, and a few kids were carefully touching it. Something like that... And lastly the three conversation topics were; 'Do you think snakes are interesting?', 'Is there any kind of animals that you particularly like?' and lastly 'Do you think knowledge is important?' I requested for the her(the examiner) to repeat that question and she kindly rephrased it, I talked very little about it but she generously gave me a promt that went; 'Do you think that too much knowledge might be dangerous'.

I went on about it and to summarise things, I felt that it went pretty well except for that 'repeat the question' part and I'm in a pretty good mood right now. Just hope that I won't meet any Ks-ers in game later to spoil my evening's mood. Laterz...

Desperate

2005-08-12T18:14:00.000+08:00

Been ages since my last post like bout a month, the pace of school life has acclerated so much that its getting hard to breath with the exams drawing ever so close. Datelines to meet, doom'sdays to meet, and extra classes to meet, can I ever keep up and not disappoint myself by wasting a whole year for the 'O's.

Even with all this going on I still can't get you out of my head, your picture just keeps appearing in my head over and over and theres nothing I can do about it, I feel so helpless. I think of you all the time but you think of him, we both have a person we want so bad but just seem so far out of reach. I like you so much, not just the face but every part of you, your smile,your laughter, your creations, your drawings, your helpfulness and for who you are.

When there were times that I saw you lonely, by yourself I felt great pity, for why could no other person see what I see, and give you love and care and make you forget the meaning of lonely. Why does she have to endure the loneliness that I do? I just don't understand.

I am a coward, I dare not confront you with my feelings. Even knowing that there is someone you like is no excuse, if I even tried there might be a chance among the infinite millions. But I dare not, I fear greatly that I am no where near worthy of you. I am ugly, for all I know, the ugliest among those whom I know and those who know me. I score no amazing grades in my studies, for I admit i suck at it. I only look failure in the eye and watch it consume my life, but do nothing to fend it off.

I like you that much, but I know that I am not the type of person that you would fall in love with. Even if I were to witness you going out with someone, being intimate with him and even your wedding someday, you would not hear anything that is even close to me liking you from me, only my sincere wishes for you to be happy.

No matter how much it bleeds, how much I might be tortured, even to death, you will not hear the words from my mouth that I like you for I know that your future would not be blissful with me, not in the tiniest way. But should you need help from me at anypoint of your life, I would gladly help. I wish to watch over you, just like the stars, even if my existence comes to an end and still have no part in your life.

Now comes the end of the year ever near, and my only wish is for you to get into a good Poly or even a JC and that I could be studying in the same institution as you in the comming year. It doesn't have to be the same class, just the same school would do, even seeing your face for seconds at the bus-stop or the corridors would suffice.
My only wish......

Great, its finally begun

2005-07-15T00:03:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I went out abit to study with a few friends, brought my D&T(Design and Technology) folio with me and finished up the final piece of the 'working drawing' section. Ahh, I'm damn happy cause with that section done, I can finally move on to start making my project which is supposed to hold up to nine cups of take away coffee, prevents spilling when unbalanced and does not get stains of coffee on you.

During extra class today, I took my acrylic(a type of plastic) pieces, cut and polished them to a gloss. Was so refreshing working with materials again. I've always prefered doing it instead of drawing the design and I have to admit, I'm really lousy at drawing. :p

Man...

2005-07-11T22:39:00.000+08:00

Bah, another unpleasent entry. Some people just don't seem to understand what it means to be friends, no wonder such people have so little friends. Some people just don't seem to understand what it means to compromise for the sake of the majority, even if himself does not lose anything from it. Some people just don't seem to understand the what it means to not be selfish, everyone seems to have to make way for him and everyone seems to have to agree on whatever he may say, even if it is wrong.

What the...

2005-07-09T13:07:00.000+08:00

Damn! Why can't people appreciate what others do for them before they are deprived of that previlage? Can those people not see? Or did they choose just to look, but not see what should be so aparent. Or is their vision clouded by things that formed a barrier so strong that it is able to filter out everything but the obvious?

When will people be able to comprehend that understanding hold the key importance to every relationship? And that he is not the single living soul on earth that has the ability to feel emotions? Those who eliminate their emotions are those that are able to survive the longest, but at the cost at living with the worst emotion a person can feel; to feel nothing.

Eighth school day of the second term

2005-07-05T22:40:00.000+08:00

What can I say, a VERY fast paced year. Teachers are proceeding with the rivisons, stacking up practices, stressing how near the exams are and with the D&T schedule behind our backs. So much to do, so little time or maybe I'm just not managing it well enough. Today was erm... long, an hour of PE lesson, maths remedial and physics remedial after school at 2pm. As if that wasn't enough, we had to go on with extra D&T class after that(which takes place everyday).

Anyway, Mr Khoo didn't seem too unhappy over our progress so he let us go off at 5.10pm. I don't know whether to consider that early or late, but we went home after that. Today's hour long PE lesson felt like it was only the usual 35min PE lesson with the exceptiopn of a moment which took no less than a split second to pass, felt like time was going on slow-mo when we jumped to 'save' the ball(we were playing captian's ball) and when we landed, someone behind me landed with his elbow going straight down onto my back. And someone who took off abit of skin off my arm creating an irritating open wound. Damn, I hate the feeling of wind blowing onto open flesh, and sweat washing over it.

I feel like I'm a little cocky recenty, has too much 'ice' melted away to allow that? If so, I didn't even notice the existence of thing that was responsible for the melting to occur.

Nice Day

2005-06-29T17:55:00.000+08:00

Started off the day with chasing the last bus that would bring me to school before the bell, slept at around 2.30am yesterday. I was working on how to make the music on my blog play more than one track, and the answer was: to mix the two tracks into one. Then I proceeded to try doing that with the audio editing software 'Goldwave' which I have never used before.

I'll skip the details but continued trying it out without checking the time and when I've succeded, walah! it's 2.30am already. Anyway, I took my rest during the first during the first two periods which was chinese lesson, then it was Maths and Ace lesson. I didn't know that our Ace teacher had been changed to Miss Serene and anyway, the lessons after that were pretty... well, smooth and interesting for some. We went for the Motivation talk at 2pm after classes which ended at around 3.45 and we were pretty much feel 'motivated' after that. Anyway, that session wasn't that bad, at least it was interesting.

During extra class for D&T, Mr Khoo brought us some biscuits(which took a really hard bite) and a mug of hot choco when we complained that we were hungry. I thought it was really nice of him to make such a gesture so I washed up the containers for him since we finished his biscuits and hot choco(which tasted really great). Ahh, we were released soon after that and we walked to the bus stop under the rain and took the bus straight home.

Hope that tomorrow would be nice too. No thought of the day today, tune in next time. :)

School Re-opens

2005-06-28T02:57:00.000+08:00

The first day of school, had to drag myself up from the bed cause i got too used to sleeping late during the holidays(the usual). The first thing I did when i reached school was the usual report to the office to sign in, bah, I've been doing this for like four years now but I don't really mind going into the general office to see the friendly staff(with the exception of one) and sometimes stop for a chat(also with the exception of one).

Ah, the first lesson, found out the timetable has been changed as usual, teaching being done but most seem to be still in the holiday mood and not taking in much of what the teacher was saying. Skip : English lesson, presented our group's video which was like very short. I think it was around 8mins or so but well, we did put in effort into producing this film. In overall, I think that it is not too bad for a begginer's production and we got a few laughs out of it.

Ah, after the video ended, it was the dreaded time; the collection of the holiday assignments. Quite a lot of us didn't hand up all the work that was asked of us to complete. Luckily Miss Choong didn't blow her top(I guess she saw this comming) and screemed at us as she used to do so often. But i bet after the June holidays there would be no more excuses for us to slack off in doing our work and she'll repeat the screaming again, hehe actually it ain't that bad hearing her scold us once in a while. And erm, don't mistake that for me being happy not doing the work she assigned us.

Well, I'll end here I guess if you check out the time this was posted, you'll know why I'm ending this here.
Good Night.

Back~~

2005-06-25T03:41:00.000+08:00

Finally my com is back and operational, with all the data intact but all at the cost of 50 bucks. Kinda sad that school is going to start very soon and the prelims not long after that. Man, secondary 5 life is like going on fastforward, the holidays are now almost over after what seemed more like only a week or two has passed. Still have the holiday homework to rush, on I go......

Crashed!@!@$

2005-06-17T18:50:00.000+08:00

Bah, when I returned home that night and anticipating to watch a new episode of an anime, I found that my blardy com could not be used arg@#$@#$. I'll prolly send it over for repairs later, I'm at my friend's place now cause I can't make my entries at home, sad... Don't feel puzzled if you don't find me online that often, i have a feeling that the repairs are not going to be done so soon...zZzZ

Sign off: What if you could turn back time? Will you then be able to promise that repetition will not occur? Forced by the same circumstance, by the same worldly pressure and the same emotions? Will you able to promise then, that the changes you made were for the better and not the worst?

Tired...

2005-06-11T21:50:00.000+08:00

I finished watching shutter last night at 3am, I went to sleep soon after that. Around 7.30am, mom woke me to go and help out at the shop at bukit timah with my dad. Business was going slow untill around lunch hour where we worked non-stop untill around 3pm. During that period, I had to simultaneously take the orders, remember all the sitting positions along with the orders, send their food over, collect the money and give them their change. ZzZz.....luckily I am partially adapted to this weekend part time job, or else I would get complained a thousand times over.

We packed up early today due to various factors, anyway after that we took a direct bus from Bukit Timah to Henderson to pass some stuff to my mom. Me and dad took our dinner there and left at around 9pm, and I'm now at home taking my hard earned rest, ahhh.... I still have to go to the shop again tomorrow, sigh... and i actually wanted to go fishing today, zzz....workz....workz...workz....

Da production

2005-06-08T20:03:00.000+08:00

I reached the meeting place at around 3pm, turned out that I was the last one to reach. Well, I was the last one to know of the meeting place... anyway, discussions were already underway and a few scenes were already taken.
I won't include the details of the film here to prevent spoilers for tomorrow's show, so I'll just move on to the event of the day.

The cameraman was in place, we started the retake, the gambling started and things were going smoothly and when Benjamin was about to scramble, the police came. LoL. The scene we were taking involved a police car at the back, the police came to get their ride when they saw Daniel and me standing beside their car...hahahahaha. So, all of us got screened, but it was really no big deal since we wern't doing anything wrong. One of the policeman even watched the scene we took with their car together with us.

But after that we continued with our work from where we stopped short, and seemingly most of our enthusiasm were extinguished as the suggestions most of them gave after that were random and flying in different directions. With some 'encouragement' and 'movtiavtion' from Chee Wai after some complications, the filming was completed. Everyone was exhausted and went home soon after.

Haha, it was sooooo long since the last time i got screened. But, that was history. Hmm, I'm looking forward to tomorrow's remedial sessions(with the exclusion of D&T's session tml), I bet it's gonna be interesting(also with the exclusion of D&T's session tml). =D

Little Sign off msg: people always say doing certain things are dangerous and bad. But when they are driven to a corner, forced by circumstance, will the same song be sung?

A day in the movers' shoes.

2005-06-06T18:54:00.000+08:00

Bah, I actually had made plans for today, to go to beach road for abit and check out the prices of for a new fishing rod that I was planning to get. My old one is pretty worn and is not in what you exactly call 'fishing condition'.

Anyway, my plans were ruined when my mom asked me to stay at home and help her move the stuff to the new stall she's opening somewhere up in henderson. We carried all the stuff down first, stuff such as; stoves, ladles, hell lots of bowls, one long steel table and stuff like that. Our block has no lift, so we have to carry all those stuff down to the first floor ourselves. But luckily, we live on the third =D

Ok, all the lighter stuff(but still heavy) are down to the first floor, the next hurdle would be the steel fridge, the kind hawkers use where the doors, hinges and all are steel...crap, what a load. The fridge is already on the first floor, but we still have to move it next to the carpark where the lorry is gonna park. Even with the three of us, we couldn't move the fridge far, moving it a metre away from its original spot was already like doing a 100 meter dash. Finally the problem was solved, borrowing a durain cart(the L shaped kind, I was surprised how it could hold together under that sorta weight), from a fruit stall near by.

Ahh, finally the lorry was here, and we loaded all the stuff on it, reached the stall, and stuffed everything right in, and yea, including that extra heavy fridge. Unloading was easier, cuz the driver and his (dunno, friend or assistant) was ther to help us unload the stuff and fridge.

Arg, enough of that, damn tired after that torture...I'm back home now, bathed and resting, ahhh, my fan, ahhh...

Boring Day...("bonus" story inside)

2005-06-03T17:24:00.000+08:00

The day started when i woke up, realising that it was 11.30am, an hour past the starting time of today's maths remedial, crap... The initial plan for today was actually to go fishing with jeremy, but we couldn't think of a good spot, and the sun was blazing. So, we canceled it, and Edmund came over to watch anime for abit instead.

Arg, maybe i'll go out for a walk on my own later when the sun dims little, but for now, i don't really have anyhing to do, so i'll type out what i wrote for my english writing test. It's not all that good but here goes :
"A Secret"

Despite the presence of the roof, moolight found its way into my room through a small pathetic window. I found the name for what was more like a crack in the wall an overkill. Under that moonlight, i pondered over what the beautiful lady who raised me whishpered in my ears before death claimed her soul. The lady told me to vist Rock and carefully look around an be careful not to let the obsessed gambler know of what I was going to do.

My family had always been living in poverty ever since my step father entered our lives. He always took all the family's savings to pay for the mountains of gambling debts he owed. Even after mother was struck with an serious illness, his habit still continued and we did not have money to pay for mother's treatment.

Racking memories from my unpleasent past, the name Rock struck me, it was the pet dog we kept and died soon after father left us. We soon moved out from our old place where Rock was buried and moved to the 'house' that we live in now. Alone in the dark of the night, I crept silently past the gambler's bed. I mounted his bike and rode to our old place under the moonlight's guidence.Finally, when I reached Rock's burial place, the sky was starting to light up and the sun's rays lit up the place. I noticed a small mound which wasn't there when Rock was buried.

I dug at the mound and soon saw what looked like a letter and a booklet enclosed in a transparent air-tight plastic bag. I peeled open the plastic bag and carefully read the contents ; "This booklet is the bankbook of the bank account which I opened under your name, I did not let your step father know about these savings as he would just gamble it away. Use this little fortune I saved up penny and nickel from my low-paying job wisely for your studies and future. Good bye son." After reading, I was reduced to tears.

The End

That dreadful yesterday morning.

2005-05-29T13:06:00.000+08:00

Arg, mom woke me up at 8am to go to school to meet my form teacher, Mrs Yeong to collect my report book. At that point of time, i had only gotten 3 hours of sleep(hung out at eddie's place the previous night) and wished that some glue had stuck me onto the bed. Haiz, the heavens didn't grant my wish, and got dragged outta my bed.

At school, while signing in, mom saw Mr. Lau, he didn't have anything bad to say, hehe....lucky. After that, we went up stairs, Cheryl was there with her mom talking, so we sat at the next table to wait for our turn. And a little side track here.....ARG!!! Cheryl took the first position in english in our class!!Ahhh!! .

So, Cheryl and her mom left soon after, and we took our seat opposite Mrs Yeong. I went through the tormenting process of filling in the "what I was going to do" section and had to sign it...ARG... After looking at the report book, I was like....ahh, whats new, I was ranked the 21st among the 24 students in my class. So, after that dreadful process, we left the place and, hehe... Feng Ming was next in line, :) .

My studies are as bad as ever....

Completed!

2005-05-27T01:22:00.000+08:00

Ahh, i've finally finished touching up every section of my blog. It feels kinda good knowing that everything in this blog from every word typed to the background was done by myself :) . But i borrowed the skeleton of the html from a blog designer's work, afterall i am a starter who still needs guidelines. And of course, i need to thank a few friends who gave helpful comments and advice. :)

Yup, it's 01.22 now, but tomorrow is the 'last' day of the week and school so, yea...... And the 'last' is because of the two weeks of remedial right after school ends, sigh...... but who can complain?
It's for our own good. :s

Anyway, feel free to roam around my blog. And here's a tip: it doesn't bite.
Oh, and please tag before you leave, thanks. :)

The Construction Begins!

2005-05-10T10:30:00.000+08:00

The First post, kinda more for testing purposes. Tune in later for a more decent one.