Tuesday, August 23, 2005
--'O' lvls english oral exam--
Boo, my tagboard's gone T_T. Anyway, I took my english 'O' lvls oral exam today and it was... I wouldn't say a breeze, but it went much smoother and better than I had thought it would be. The General topic was- snakes. The passage was about this two good friends who know lots about snakes, but when a park ranger came to their school and brought along a snake, it showed otherwise.
The picture was showing two park rangers wrapped each with a snake around them in the middle of a primary school hall surrounded by children, and a few kids were carefully touching it. Something like that... And lastly the three conversation topics were; 'Do you think snakes are interesting?', 'Is there any kind of animals that you particularly like?' and lastly 'Do you think knowledge is important?' I requested for the her(the examiner) to repeat that question and she kindly rephrased it, I talked very little about it but she generously gave me a promt that went; 'Do you think that too much knowledge might be dangerous'.
I went on about it and to summarise things, I felt that it went pretty well except for that 'repeat the question' part and I'm in a pretty good mood right now. Just hope that I won't meet any Ks-ers in game later to spoil my evening's mood. Laterz...
Then again, i ask myself:
Why was the flame encased in ice so thick?
What was it that froze a flame so wild?
Now that it is frozen, was it for the better?
Or was it for the worse?
3:51 PM
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Friday, August 12, 2005
--Desperate--
Been ages since my last post like bout a month, the pace of school life has acclerated so much that its getting hard to breath with the exams drawing ever so close. Datelines to meet, doom'sdays to meet, and extra classes to meet, can I ever keep up and not disappoint myself by wasting a whole year for the 'O's.
Even with all this going on I still can't get you out of my head, your picture just keeps appearing in my head over and over and theres nothing I can do about it, I feel so helpless. I think of you all the time but you think of him, we both have a person we want so bad but just seem so far out of reach. I like you so much, not just the face but every part of you, your smile,your laughter, your creations, your drawings, your helpfulness and for who you are.
When there were times that I saw you lonely, by yourself I felt great pity, for why could no other person see what I see, and give you love and care and make you forget the meaning of lonely. Why does she have to endure the loneliness that I do? I just don't understand.
I am a coward, I dare not confront you with my feelings. Even knowing that there is someone you like is no excuse, if I even tried there might be a chance among the infinite millions. But I dare not, I fear greatly that I am no where near worthy of you. I am ugly, for all I know, the ugliest among those whom I know and those who know me. I score no amazing grades in my studies, for I admit i suck at it. I only look failure in the eye and watch it consume my life, but do nothing to fend it off.
I like you that much, but I know that I am not the type of person that you would fall in love with. Even if I were to witness you going out with someone, being intimate with him and even your wedding someday, you would not hear anything that is even close to me liking you from me, only my sincere wishes for you to be happy.
No matter how much it bleeds, how much I might be tortured, even to death, you will not hear the words from my mouth that I like you for I know that your future would not be blissful with me, not in the tiniest way. But should you need help from me at anypoint of your life, I would gladly help. I wish to watch over you, just like the stars, even if my existence comes to an end and still have no part in your life.
Now comes the end of the year ever near, and my only wish is for you to get into a good Poly or even a JC and that I could be studying in the same institution as you in the comming year. It doesn't have to be the same class, just the same school would do, even seeing your face for seconds at the bus-stop or the corridors would suffice.
My only wish......
Then again, i ask myself:
Why was the flame encased in ice so thick?
What was it that froze a flame so wild?
Now that it is frozen, was it for the better?
Or was it for the worse?
6:14 PM
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