Friday, September 14, 2007
--Envious--
You know, I've always envied those people..
People who posseses those characters...
Characters that allow them to block out everything they want to deny,
Reject the facts, reject your own wrongs and push it off...
Tell others that they were right, and admit you're wrong...
Just because you don't want to see their point, see why you were wrong..
Characters that allow them to do anything and everything,
Without consideration of others, their feelings, their emotions, their effort, their time..
Without thinking how others would be able to live better with them,
But how they will have to live with them...
And being able to live happily like this...
I could never understand them...
If I changed myself to become one of them,
Would I be able to live more happily..?
Maybe if i did, even if I didn't end up being happier..
At least I would be immune to all this...
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5.30pm.
I booked out, I made my way straight back to camp from
tanah merah..
Cuz I hoped I would be able to attend your passing out parade,
To watch you pass out...
Even though my free time today was limited to 11pm..
I chose to look for you, to share your moment of celebration..
MRT took me nearly an hour..
You called and told me it's over, but I thought it's okay..
At least we could head home together.. I asked you to wait for me..
I was one stop away.. I recieved your message..
Telling me that you already got a cab, and that you're sorry..
You know what that means..?
It means I'm not even worth a cab to you.
A cab means to you more, than me...
Then again, i ask myself:
Why was the flame encased in ice so thick?
What was it that froze a flame so wild?
Now that it is frozen, was it for the better?
Or was it for the worse?
7:31 PM
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